1:44 am 27th october arekta unexpected turn in my life, hotat mon a holo stabbed hoe gelam amongst my happiness, oi message tar 5 min age obdhi o nachilam ato khusi chilam .. maa ke giey jorie kol a tulenieychilam.. thakur er oi ashon tar samne fridger pashe giey 5 minute dhore amar happiness ta prokash kore chilam... Hotat shob change hoe galo...
Aaj kaal ar beshi expect korina choto choto jinish amae boddo khusi kore dae je...sei happiness tao ar roilo naa... i guess happiness has become an emotion in my life that is becoming my enemy day by day...
Raag hoi ni jokhn tumi bole dile "Ds is my last msg to u , Bye...", tomar maa er proti amar oi tuku kortobo chilo je ami janie di "shob thik hoche akhn" ... bhebe chilam hoytoh unio tension a achen ... bhule gechilam amar ar kono presence nei ...
jokhon onake fone kore kedechilam tokhn onar koshto ta bujhe bhebechilam aste aste thik hole i wud let her knw ami thik achi akhn..Sorry eta hoytoh tumi onno chokhe nile... sorry ta jor kore bollam kintu...
I had to repent for my happiness all night long.. ei feeling ta bujhbe naa.. another sleepless thoughtfull night it was.. Nijeke eram koshte dekhini jibone.. Khusi hole je setar sasti pete hoy jantam naa.. eram sasti je keu dite pare bhebeo dekhi ni amar 8125 days of being in this planet..
Koshto mane otti nimno level er koshto holo .. akta handicapped lok ke hath a kore tule dar korie khusi die take porer moment a dhakka mere fele dile chure.. ei feeling ta bujhbe naa..being dumped for being happy is a pain that i never incurred in my entire life.
I hate my smile, i hate my gathered innocence , i hate my gathered simplicity , i hate my happiness !!!
smile and happiness are a dream of the past now , rest of my entire remaining life i will be scared to smile , scared to be happy ... Happiness in my life can be so shortlived eta kono deen o bhabi ni.. and trust me the happiness u say is shortlived in your life is better than what i went through yesterday !!!
I have never felt so low 3:21 am to 8:20 am was the worst 5 hours of my entire life ...
akbar o keu pashe eshe darai ni oi 5 hours.. khali nijer proti hate aschilo !! hate aschilo eta bhebe keno bhalobeshechilam shob limit bhenge.. keno sopno dekhechilam shb boundary perie..
Tumi akhno bujhte paro naa ke kiram ... amar feelings take oi 5 hours dhore stab kore gacho... 5 hours !!! that is 300 minutes or 18000 seconds dhore i felt u were satbing my heart constantly blow after blow it pleaded to be left because it had already died kintu ekbaro bole naa jaah moore jah i killed u .. hate thakle mere felajae .. kin2 eram 5 hours dhore constantly stab kore jawa is cold blooded... bhabi ni ato ta hatred jome ache tomar amar proti !!!
Kin2 5 hours of that tormenting pain er poreo wen my heart was lying with gaping wound and mutilated beyond a point of recognition, chena jachilo naa that it was the place which stored so muchhh feelings and emotions for u .. kin2 afterall this repeated gaping wounds .. my heart still said yes madhumanti i m glad u stabbed me .. u have the full authority of it, kothao jano eto bochor dhore tomar sthy thakte thakte tomake full charge diey dieychilam to do anything with it u want to.. its last words were love u beyond a horizon of death ...
i was not afraid of dying for u ever... wen i meant jaan diey debo i literally meant it ... dakh amay .. look at me now i have no emotions left in me to weep , i have no confidence in me to see, i have to wish in me to revived...
Jani naa i guess these wounds will take an eternity to heal ... My family still owns a part of it.. mayb thts what is making me breathe... sekhaneo hoytoh tor jaega ache !!! karon akhno ato kichu oti krom korar poreo jani naa hw am i still loving u like this... U were a miracle woman ... shotti jibone a bhabi ni i can love sum1 to this extent.. hoytoh sei jonnoi mukh theke berie jeto luv u infinite luv u till the end of time.. infinite obdhi bhaba jae naa tai i hoytoh bujhi ni eto ta extent a bhalobashi...
i am going through the toughest and the most painfull day of my entire life.. bhenge jachi naa.. kin2 i have no more tears left in my tear glands to weep, jokhn joto tuku chokher jol toiri hoche setao amar control charai berie chole jache...
Baba boltoh mathar gham ar chokher jol fala jae naa... aaj baba ke jigasa korte icha korche baba chokh er jol sesh hoe gele ki hoy go.. ba chokh er jol nijer theke gorie porche keno .. hoytoh baba bolte parto , kintu he is my father ofcourse he created me through his exsistence.. tai giey bolte parlam naa ar .. karon shunle baba buk ta hoytoh fete jeto...
maa amar ato close hoe o baba ke bolte icha hochilo hoytoh baba choto theke ato struggle dekheche bole.. bole o bollam naa bhablam ami chele hoy aaj baba ke jorie eta jigasa korte pari kin2 baba o choto bela thek onek struggle o ekta bhanga rltn er mdhy diey o gache tokhn tar baba o chilo naa ektu jorie chokh er jol ta muchie dewar jonoh..
aaj baba prothom bar ato bochor baade mon a holo ami tomar sthy keno comparssion kortam tumi amar theke onek beshi strong ...tomar ei bhabna tao ashte pari ni je giey baba ba maaer kache bhenge jai...
Tomar situation ta aj bujhe gae kanta die uthlo ... tumi amar theke onek boro maap er manush aaj bujhlam.. Jibon a shob hara hoe o nijer rokter lok roe jae tomar pashe tarao chilo naa... Tomake je strength er chokhe dekhtam sei strngth ta aro magnify hoe galo .. hotat jano ekta piprer moto lagche ekta porbot er tolay darie..
Baba tomar oi duto word amay aaj o amar sopne majhy majhy eshe dhakka dae jokhn harie jai ... "GO AHEAD" ...
samne jani naa ki ache baba amar ar dristi shokti nei dakhar kintu tomar opor ogad bishas amar blindly pachil diey hat te bolleo tai korbo...
Baba oke ato bhalobesheo ato keno koshto pelam.. kano jano liveless akta body lagche.. kono onubhuti asche naa ar shorir a.. tao baba oke ene dao naa go .. jani baba tumi bokbe amay shunle ki bhby fupie fupie kedechi deen er por deen raat er por raat til til kore kostho peyechi tao bolbo BABA EK BAR OKE ENE DAO NAA SARAJIBONER MOTO...
akhn ami uthi ar mon korle chokh diey rokto porbe je ki bhby suffer korchi... tomar jonoh aaj rokto tao jol bhebe muche nebo.. tumi bhalo thako tumi sukhe thako..
tomar pashe ami sorboda achi .. ar thakbo.. tomar pashe amar ekta invisible presence thak .. ar amar chera fete jawa hridoy jure tomar bhalobasha roilo akhno ..
Khusir jonoh sasti ek nirmom sasti ..oloukik sasti .. a emon ak sasti jar kono sima nei.. eta sima heen sasti.. karon jibon a ami er por joto bar i khusi hote jabo songey songey koshte fete jabo.. ato sastir poreo aaj tomay boli ekta kotha ami akhno tomay oto tai bhalo bashi ..baa aro beshi bhalo bashi..
Aaj tumi here gele.. worldly pains er jonoh tumi amay emon ek sasti dile jetar kono sima nei .. ekta unending curse diey dile for this life.. Tao i emerged as the victor after an effect of brutal curse m still loving u .. sekhane tumi amay kichu sobdo ar worldly matter er jonoh bhalobasha chere dile..
I won today .. aaj ami jite gechi karon i proved my love for you extended beyond any boundaries tai dakho even an unending curse is not letting me stop loving u... bolbo naa tumi harale kichu karon amar chokh a tumi harte paro naa kin2 etai bolbo tumi bujhbe kono ek jonme ei koshto ta..
akhon apatoto ei tukui likchi pore abar asbo....
Aaj kaal ar beshi expect korina choto choto jinish amae boddo khusi kore dae je...sei happiness tao ar roilo naa... i guess happiness has become an emotion in my life that is becoming my enemy day by day...
Raag hoi ni jokhn tumi bole dile "Ds is my last msg to u , Bye...", tomar maa er proti amar oi tuku kortobo chilo je ami janie di "shob thik hoche akhn" ... bhebe chilam hoytoh unio tension a achen ... bhule gechilam amar ar kono presence nei ...
jokhon onake fone kore kedechilam tokhn onar koshto ta bujhe bhebechilam aste aste thik hole i wud let her knw ami thik achi akhn..Sorry eta hoytoh tumi onno chokhe nile... sorry ta jor kore bollam kintu...
I had to repent for my happiness all night long.. ei feeling ta bujhbe naa.. another sleepless thoughtfull night it was.. Nijeke eram koshte dekhini jibone.. Khusi hole je setar sasti pete hoy jantam naa.. eram sasti je keu dite pare bhebeo dekhi ni amar 8125 days of being in this planet..
Koshto mane otti nimno level er koshto holo .. akta handicapped lok ke hath a kore tule dar korie khusi die take porer moment a dhakka mere fele dile chure.. ei feeling ta bujhbe naa..being dumped for being happy is a pain that i never incurred in my entire life.
I hate my smile, i hate my gathered innocence , i hate my gathered simplicity , i hate my happiness !!!
smile and happiness are a dream of the past now , rest of my entire remaining life i will be scared to smile , scared to be happy ... Happiness in my life can be so shortlived eta kono deen o bhabi ni.. and trust me the happiness u say is shortlived in your life is better than what i went through yesterday !!!
I have never felt so low 3:21 am to 8:20 am was the worst 5 hours of my entire life ...
akbar o keu pashe eshe darai ni oi 5 hours.. khali nijer proti hate aschilo !! hate aschilo eta bhebe keno bhalobeshechilam shob limit bhenge.. keno sopno dekhechilam shb boundary perie..
Tumi akhno bujhte paro naa ke kiram ... amar feelings take oi 5 hours dhore stab kore gacho... 5 hours !!! that is 300 minutes or 18000 seconds dhore i felt u were satbing my heart constantly blow after blow it pleaded to be left because it had already died kintu ekbaro bole naa jaah moore jah i killed u .. hate thakle mere felajae .. kin2 eram 5 hours dhore constantly stab kore jawa is cold blooded... bhabi ni ato ta hatred jome ache tomar amar proti !!!
Kin2 5 hours of that tormenting pain er poreo wen my heart was lying with gaping wound and mutilated beyond a point of recognition, chena jachilo naa that it was the place which stored so muchhh feelings and emotions for u .. kin2 afterall this repeated gaping wounds .. my heart still said yes madhumanti i m glad u stabbed me .. u have the full authority of it, kothao jano eto bochor dhore tomar sthy thakte thakte tomake full charge diey dieychilam to do anything with it u want to.. its last words were love u beyond a horizon of death ...
i was not afraid of dying for u ever... wen i meant jaan diey debo i literally meant it ... dakh amay .. look at me now i have no emotions left in me to weep , i have no confidence in me to see, i have to wish in me to revived...
Jani naa i guess these wounds will take an eternity to heal ... My family still owns a part of it.. mayb thts what is making me breathe... sekhaneo hoytoh tor jaega ache !!! karon akhno ato kichu oti krom korar poreo jani naa hw am i still loving u like this... U were a miracle woman ... shotti jibone a bhabi ni i can love sum1 to this extent.. hoytoh sei jonnoi mukh theke berie jeto luv u infinite luv u till the end of time.. infinite obdhi bhaba jae naa tai i hoytoh bujhi ni eto ta extent a bhalobashi...
i am going through the toughest and the most painfull day of my entire life.. bhenge jachi naa.. kin2 i have no more tears left in my tear glands to weep, jokhn joto tuku chokher jol toiri hoche setao amar control charai berie chole jache...
Baba boltoh mathar gham ar chokher jol fala jae naa... aaj baba ke jigasa korte icha korche baba chokh er jol sesh hoe gele ki hoy go.. ba chokh er jol nijer theke gorie porche keno .. hoytoh baba bolte parto , kintu he is my father ofcourse he created me through his exsistence.. tai giey bolte parlam naa ar .. karon shunle baba buk ta hoytoh fete jeto...
maa amar ato close hoe o baba ke bolte icha hochilo hoytoh baba choto theke ato struggle dekheche bole.. bole o bollam naa bhablam ami chele hoy aaj baba ke jorie eta jigasa korte pari kin2 baba o choto bela thek onek struggle o ekta bhanga rltn er mdhy diey o gache tokhn tar baba o chilo naa ektu jorie chokh er jol ta muchie dewar jonoh..
aaj baba prothom bar ato bochor baade mon a holo ami tomar sthy keno comparssion kortam tumi amar theke onek beshi strong ...tomar ei bhabna tao ashte pari ni je giey baba ba maaer kache bhenge jai...
Tomar situation ta aj bujhe gae kanta die uthlo ... tumi amar theke onek boro maap er manush aaj bujhlam.. Jibon a shob hara hoe o nijer rokter lok roe jae tomar pashe tarao chilo naa... Tomake je strength er chokhe dekhtam sei strngth ta aro magnify hoe galo .. hotat jano ekta piprer moto lagche ekta porbot er tolay darie..
Baba tomar oi duto word amay aaj o amar sopne majhy majhy eshe dhakka dae jokhn harie jai ... "GO AHEAD" ...
samne jani naa ki ache baba amar ar dristi shokti nei dakhar kintu tomar opor ogad bishas amar blindly pachil diey hat te bolleo tai korbo...
Baba oke ato bhalobesheo ato keno koshto pelam.. kano jano liveless akta body lagche.. kono onubhuti asche naa ar shorir a.. tao baba oke ene dao naa go .. jani baba tumi bokbe amay shunle ki bhby fupie fupie kedechi deen er por deen raat er por raat til til kore kostho peyechi tao bolbo BABA EK BAR OKE ENE DAO NAA SARAJIBONER MOTO...
akhn ami uthi ar mon korle chokh diey rokto porbe je ki bhby suffer korchi... tomar jonoh aaj rokto tao jol bhebe muche nebo.. tumi bhalo thako tumi sukhe thako..
tomar pashe ami sorboda achi .. ar thakbo.. tomar pashe amar ekta invisible presence thak .. ar amar chera fete jawa hridoy jure tomar bhalobasha roilo akhno ..
Khusir jonoh sasti ek nirmom sasti ..oloukik sasti .. a emon ak sasti jar kono sima nei.. eta sima heen sasti.. karon jibon a ami er por joto bar i khusi hote jabo songey songey koshte fete jabo.. ato sastir poreo aaj tomay boli ekta kotha ami akhno tomay oto tai bhalo bashi ..baa aro beshi bhalo bashi..
Aaj tumi here gele.. worldly pains er jonoh tumi amay emon ek sasti dile jetar kono sima nei .. ekta unending curse diey dile for this life.. Tao i emerged as the victor after an effect of brutal curse m still loving u .. sekhane tumi amay kichu sobdo ar worldly matter er jonoh bhalobasha chere dile..
I won today .. aaj ami jite gechi karon i proved my love for you extended beyond any boundaries tai dakho even an unending curse is not letting me stop loving u... bolbo naa tumi harale kichu karon amar chokh a tumi harte paro naa kin2 etai bolbo tumi bujhbe kono ek jonme ei koshto ta..
akhon apatoto ei tukui likchi pore abar asbo....
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