wbjee ir deen ki holo ota ek deen ono ekta chapter a bolbo ... akhn ektu mon ta beshi kharap lagche tai onno kichu likhchi..
Amar raag dominance was alwys unhealthy for our relation... kin2 mathay tomay harie felbo ei kotha ta kheye feltoh .. ami tomar sathe joto jhamela korechi tar che onekkkk beshi bhalobeshechilam eta tumio jano..
ha hoytoh bhul chilo raag prokash kora ta.. kin2 ami tomar kache ato safe ar dependent feel kortam je kono deen mon a hoi ni raag dakhale ek deen chere diey chole jab... Akhon ar raag ashe naa karon akhn ami ar tomar opor dependent naa , amar last ko ek deen life er worst days gache.. shob ure gechilo matha theke sudhu ami amar bhul ar je jinish gulo tomay bolte parini ba je jinish gulo korte pari ni ei gulo niey deen keteche..
Khub koshto pachi jano kintu ami nijeke kono bhby nijeke control kore nichi karon ami jani tumi khusi acho.. kintu amar shorir amar mon nijeke control korte parche naa.. era kintu amar kono kotha shunche naa..
Amio tomari moto manush , kintu tomar ar amar mdhy ekta farak ache.. U have responsibilities and a place to vent out ur thghts.. ur thghts now surround ur work tomar ar amar oshtitto niey bhabar time nei ato busy rekhecho nijeke... ami kintu chaileo nijke busy korte parbo naa tomake jei jinish gulobolte parini ba je jinish gulo korte pari ni sei gulo niey i pore thakchi ...
Bolbe time tokeo palte debe .. haa time amay palte debe kaaj niey baistho hoe jabo..kintu ki bolo toh unconsiously shob kaaj kora jae naa.. amr excellence amar shear effrorts ws along with ur presence...
Behind every sucessfull man there is alwys a woman , eta asha korechi shunechis... Bt i think broken people have a slow paced life .. somoy akhn koto slow hoe gache jano naa ..
amar shorir tae aste aste bish chorie jache eta second a second a feel korte parchi ... bish ta self hatred...
nijer self respect tyag kore diechilam tomay ekta selfrespct er against a kotha bolechilam bole..
kintu aste aste setao gain back korchi..m happy for myslf now.. and the suffer tht m going thrgh ... eka lage nijeke ... raag er bosh a tomay onek kotha shunie chi mani kintu eta mante pari naa eto bhalo basha o je diechilam shetar bosh a last ekbaro manle naa tumi...
raag hoe nijer opor bhabi je tomake tomar moto chere debo kintu ekta bacha bhitor thke bole oke ene dao naa... oi bacha ta hoytoh ar beche thakbe naa beshi deen ..
tokhon amio arekta chalta firta dead body hoe jabo ei dead world tae .. aaj puro prtithbi te ato oshanti ei karon ei karor karor jonoh bhabar time nei.. sobai morar moto ghure baray... amio aste aste oram i hoe jabo..
prithibi te shob shastir return ache mani... kintu evry punishment has a time trail .. amr kono bhool hoi ni excptng hoytoh tomay majhe majhe bodo misunderstnd kortam ar raag prokash kore feltam kothay kothay .. majhy majhy granted hisabh a nie o niechilam ..kintu tomay excessive bhalo o beshechi eta ki kore bhule jao... ha flirt o korechi kintu kono deen tomay cheat korar kotha bhabio ni ... jokhn karokhy bhalo legechilo tomay eshe boltam janish oke naa besh bhalo legeche amar.. tumi eta ke puro onno chokhe dekhecho..
tumi bhabte tomar modhe ki komti ache bole like korchi .. shono liking ar bhalo basha is a different thing kono deen bujhbe nijeo.. amar maa sri sri ravishankar ke uncondtionally like kore karon tar mane ei naa shey amar baba ke chere tar kache giey shonyash niey nebe..
tomar modhe jodi komti dekhtam tahole hoytoh aaj ato suffer kortam naa.. tomake ami borabor perfect hishabei menechi haa hoytoh boltam eram kor naa oram kor naa .. karon tomake eto bhalobastam over perfectionist hoe jetam majhy majhy ..
shob somoy bujhtam tumi onek bindings a acho .. tokhn nijer over perfection ta komie ditam .. tomar khusi tomar kotha tai agey bhebechi amar bhalo bashar ageo .. aajo bhabi sara jibon bhabbo.. aaj ami nijeke ekta kotha bolei tule ni je tumi khusi acho .. nijer icha nei uthe daranor karon i ws equally happy with ur thghts and memories but nijeke dhore ni karon ami jani tumi kono deen kothao theke amar khobor pabe and i dont want u to think tht u were the reasons for my downfall.. ekta kotha janbe tomake ami akhno strength hishabe mani tai akhno tomar kotha gulo kaan a bhase.. ami ghure darabo hoytoh ko ek bochor lagbe.. ki bolotoh ami ato tai attchd chilam tomar kache berie conciously kaaj korte time lagbe.. chinta koro naa hoytoh engineering er sesh bochor ta ektu kharap jabe .. canada o hbe naa hoytoh.. kintu ekta kotha meno manush er destiny paltay naa jodi darano kopal a thake ak deen nischoi ghure darabo..
kintu akhn tomar hangover ta niey thakte chai .. majh mjhy unconciously duniya take observe koro dekhbe koto simple hoe jae life ta.. amake ato dure pathie dile je tomake mon er kotha gulo o bole uthte parlam naa..
jani move on kore gacho tumi .. akta notun start niey nieycho life a mane lebu ta kheyeniecho dekhbe tomar nesha ta kete jabe taratari .. tumi khusi hoe egie jao etai amar last wish ...onek deen baade abar bhalobesho ar bhalobasha peye o ..
hoytoh pagol er moto bhalo basha ta bhul .. kintu bujhi ni go sense a theke bhalo bashte hoy else sheta thake naa... tomake jokhn dekhtam naa senseless hoe jetam mathay jai choltoh erase hoe jeto..
dakho bhul er boshe hoyoth tomar self respect onek bar hurt korechi onek kothao shunie chi kintu
kintu i guess amar moto tomay hardly keu bhalobashte parbe.. then again i might be wrong hoytoh m being self centred..
kintu ki jano toh hoytoh u will find sum1 in ur life in future je tomay hu bahu understnd korbe kintu amar moto bhalo bashte parbe naa .. eto ta bhalo bashtam nijer mathay jai cholto bole ditam je eke bhalo laglo dekhe baa rege mathay jai ashto bole feltam... this was because of my crystal clear love for you...
amar dictionary te jano toh move on bole kichu nei .. get used to the absence bolte pari ami.. kintu jibon a ar kauke kono deen chokh tule dekhteo parbo naa tomake chara.. karor jonoh naa .. na baba na maa na keu ..
tomay jokhon ato ta sahosh kore ato ta bhalobeshe chi i will get used to ur absence.. but ono kauke kono deen dekhte parbo naa..
khub icha kore ar ekbar jodi tumi eshe jao hoytoh je truti gulo kore felechilam excssv bhalo beshe sei gulo chnge kore nebo.. truti mane kothao understanding er obhab hoe gechilo .. loke bole late realization is good .. kintu hoytoh beshi late hoe jetam..
ami bhabi ni hotat kore tumi oto boro ekta step niey nebe .. sob mota muti thik i hoe gechilo tumi jawar por .. kin2 ei geographic location ta hoytoh distance barie diechilo.. pujoy ekhane thakle tokhn tomakei protek deen time ditam like evry pujas.. amar kolkatay last pujo bhebechilam bole beriegiechilam.. eta ke tumi ono chokhe nile je ami furti korte chole gechi .. eram kichui naa.. tomar kotha shob somoy i mathay choltoh .. rege ekta kotha bollam bole tar result ta ato ta violent outcome hobe bhabi ni ..
hoytoh eka acho bole amar oi kotha gulo oto ta gae legegechilo .. amar kotha ta amplify hoe gechilo jano toh thik jeram mike a kotha bolle speaker diey oto jore shonay ... ar amplification ta hoe chilo amader geogrphc distnce tar jonoh kolkata to kochi is around 2300 kms so kotha ta 2300 times harsh shunie chilo..
amar last pujoi holo bote next year theke october ele gae kata debe.. prithbir shob prante bangalira tader srestho pujo manabe ar ami fear psychosis a katbe... but i will remind myslf of the lovely pujas tht we celebrated together..
Amar raag dominance was alwys unhealthy for our relation... kin2 mathay tomay harie felbo ei kotha ta kheye feltoh .. ami tomar sathe joto jhamela korechi tar che onekkkk beshi bhalobeshechilam eta tumio jano..
ha hoytoh bhul chilo raag prokash kora ta.. kin2 ami tomar kache ato safe ar dependent feel kortam je kono deen mon a hoi ni raag dakhale ek deen chere diey chole jab... Akhon ar raag ashe naa karon akhn ami ar tomar opor dependent naa , amar last ko ek deen life er worst days gache.. shob ure gechilo matha theke sudhu ami amar bhul ar je jinish gulo tomay bolte parini ba je jinish gulo korte pari ni ei gulo niey deen keteche..
Khub koshto pachi jano kintu ami nijeke kono bhby nijeke control kore nichi karon ami jani tumi khusi acho.. kintu amar shorir amar mon nijeke control korte parche naa.. era kintu amar kono kotha shunche naa..
Amio tomari moto manush , kintu tomar ar amar mdhy ekta farak ache.. U have responsibilities and a place to vent out ur thghts.. ur thghts now surround ur work tomar ar amar oshtitto niey bhabar time nei ato busy rekhecho nijeke... ami kintu chaileo nijke busy korte parbo naa tomake jei jinish gulobolte parini ba je jinish gulo korte pari ni sei gulo niey i pore thakchi ...
Bolbe time tokeo palte debe .. haa time amay palte debe kaaj niey baistho hoe jabo..kintu ki bolo toh unconsiously shob kaaj kora jae naa.. amr excellence amar shear effrorts ws along with ur presence...
Behind every sucessfull man there is alwys a woman , eta asha korechi shunechis... Bt i think broken people have a slow paced life .. somoy akhn koto slow hoe gache jano naa ..
amar shorir tae aste aste bish chorie jache eta second a second a feel korte parchi ... bish ta self hatred...
nijer self respect tyag kore diechilam tomay ekta selfrespct er against a kotha bolechilam bole..
kintu aste aste setao gain back korchi..m happy for myslf now.. and the suffer tht m going thrgh ... eka lage nijeke ... raag er bosh a tomay onek kotha shunie chi mani kintu eta mante pari naa eto bhalo basha o je diechilam shetar bosh a last ekbaro manle naa tumi...
raag hoe nijer opor bhabi je tomake tomar moto chere debo kintu ekta bacha bhitor thke bole oke ene dao naa... oi bacha ta hoytoh ar beche thakbe naa beshi deen ..
tokhon amio arekta chalta firta dead body hoe jabo ei dead world tae .. aaj puro prtithbi te ato oshanti ei karon ei karor karor jonoh bhabar time nei.. sobai morar moto ghure baray... amio aste aste oram i hoe jabo..
prithibi te shob shastir return ache mani... kintu evry punishment has a time trail .. amr kono bhool hoi ni excptng hoytoh tomay majhe majhe bodo misunderstnd kortam ar raag prokash kore feltam kothay kothay .. majhy majhy granted hisabh a nie o niechilam ..kintu tomay excessive bhalo o beshechi eta ki kore bhule jao... ha flirt o korechi kintu kono deen tomay cheat korar kotha bhabio ni ... jokhn karokhy bhalo legechilo tomay eshe boltam janish oke naa besh bhalo legeche amar.. tumi eta ke puro onno chokhe dekhecho..
tumi bhabte tomar modhe ki komti ache bole like korchi .. shono liking ar bhalo basha is a different thing kono deen bujhbe nijeo.. amar maa sri sri ravishankar ke uncondtionally like kore karon tar mane ei naa shey amar baba ke chere tar kache giey shonyash niey nebe..
tomar modhe jodi komti dekhtam tahole hoytoh aaj ato suffer kortam naa.. tomake ami borabor perfect hishabei menechi haa hoytoh boltam eram kor naa oram kor naa .. karon tomake eto bhalobastam over perfectionist hoe jetam majhy majhy ..
shob somoy bujhtam tumi onek bindings a acho .. tokhn nijer over perfection ta komie ditam .. tomar khusi tomar kotha tai agey bhebechi amar bhalo bashar ageo .. aajo bhabi sara jibon bhabbo.. aaj ami nijeke ekta kotha bolei tule ni je tumi khusi acho .. nijer icha nei uthe daranor karon i ws equally happy with ur thghts and memories but nijeke dhore ni karon ami jani tumi kono deen kothao theke amar khobor pabe and i dont want u to think tht u were the reasons for my downfall.. ekta kotha janbe tomake ami akhno strength hishabe mani tai akhno tomar kotha gulo kaan a bhase.. ami ghure darabo hoytoh ko ek bochor lagbe.. ki bolotoh ami ato tai attchd chilam tomar kache berie conciously kaaj korte time lagbe.. chinta koro naa hoytoh engineering er sesh bochor ta ektu kharap jabe .. canada o hbe naa hoytoh.. kintu ekta kotha meno manush er destiny paltay naa jodi darano kopal a thake ak deen nischoi ghure darabo..
kintu akhn tomar hangover ta niey thakte chai .. majh mjhy unconciously duniya take observe koro dekhbe koto simple hoe jae life ta.. amake ato dure pathie dile je tomake mon er kotha gulo o bole uthte parlam naa..
jani move on kore gacho tumi .. akta notun start niey nieycho life a mane lebu ta kheyeniecho dekhbe tomar nesha ta kete jabe taratari .. tumi khusi hoe egie jao etai amar last wish ...onek deen baade abar bhalobesho ar bhalobasha peye o ..
hoytoh pagol er moto bhalo basha ta bhul .. kintu bujhi ni go sense a theke bhalo bashte hoy else sheta thake naa... tomake jokhn dekhtam naa senseless hoe jetam mathay jai choltoh erase hoe jeto..
dakho bhul er boshe hoyoth tomar self respect onek bar hurt korechi onek kothao shunie chi kintu
kintu i guess amar moto tomay hardly keu bhalobashte parbe.. then again i might be wrong hoytoh m being self centred..
kintu ki jano toh hoytoh u will find sum1 in ur life in future je tomay hu bahu understnd korbe kintu amar moto bhalo bashte parbe naa .. eto ta bhalo bashtam nijer mathay jai cholto bole ditam je eke bhalo laglo dekhe baa rege mathay jai ashto bole feltam... this was because of my crystal clear love for you...
amar dictionary te jano toh move on bole kichu nei .. get used to the absence bolte pari ami.. kintu jibon a ar kauke kono deen chokh tule dekhteo parbo naa tomake chara.. karor jonoh naa .. na baba na maa na keu ..
tomay jokhon ato ta sahosh kore ato ta bhalobeshe chi i will get used to ur absence.. but ono kauke kono deen dekhte parbo naa..
khub icha kore ar ekbar jodi tumi eshe jao hoytoh je truti gulo kore felechilam excssv bhalo beshe sei gulo chnge kore nebo.. truti mane kothao understanding er obhab hoe gechilo .. loke bole late realization is good .. kintu hoytoh beshi late hoe jetam..
ami bhabi ni hotat kore tumi oto boro ekta step niey nebe .. sob mota muti thik i hoe gechilo tumi jawar por .. kin2 ei geographic location ta hoytoh distance barie diechilo.. pujoy ekhane thakle tokhn tomakei protek deen time ditam like evry pujas.. amar kolkatay last pujo bhebechilam bole beriegiechilam.. eta ke tumi ono chokhe nile je ami furti korte chole gechi .. eram kichui naa.. tomar kotha shob somoy i mathay choltoh .. rege ekta kotha bollam bole tar result ta ato ta violent outcome hobe bhabi ni ..
hoytoh eka acho bole amar oi kotha gulo oto ta gae legegechilo .. amar kotha ta amplify hoe gechilo jano toh thik jeram mike a kotha bolle speaker diey oto jore shonay ... ar amplification ta hoe chilo amader geogrphc distnce tar jonoh kolkata to kochi is around 2300 kms so kotha ta 2300 times harsh shunie chilo..
amar last pujoi holo bote next year theke october ele gae kata debe.. prithbir shob prante bangalira tader srestho pujo manabe ar ami fear psychosis a katbe... but i will remind myslf of the lovely pujas tht we celebrated together..
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