maa babar jhamela tokhn tunge ... rehersal porikha tokhun .. jatah bhby ekdeen baba ke jhere dhaka die dilam ... porer deen history porikha .. sara shokal dupur dhore nicher floor a eka aktke rekhechilam ... (tokhno purono baritei thaki)
baba bikele eshe knock korlo dorja khule baba ke dekhe chokh a jol chole elo .. babar chokh tao dekhlam jol a bhorti .. prothom bar amar markutte baba take eram obsthay dekhi ami bhenge jai .. baba bollo cholo amar sthy ..ami obhiman kore boli naa jabo naa ar kaal porikhao debo naa.. baba bollo thik ache akhn cholo amar sthy .. ami ar baba gari niey berie gelam oi 50 min er ride frm shymbzr to ruby ws dead silent..
khub koshto hochilo eta bhebe je kano tomra lorai koro haa ?? dujonei toh pashe chile naa jokhn teenage tae boro hochilam akhn keno prem dakhacho .. chotobelay oto bhalobashte hotat second college reunion por theke kano ato jhamela korcho.. mon a mon a ei shb bole gelam .. baba ruby te neme ki shob kaaj kore elo lawyer er sthy ami garir pashei ghora ghuri korlam .. okhan theke fancy market gelam .. tarpor bari firlam 10 tae.. baba bollo mind fresh hoeche .. ebar giey shue poro kaal jaah hbe hbe chinta koro naa.. tension a ami 10 theke sararaat history ta pore porer deen giey xam dilam .. pass kore gechilam otai halka nombor er jonoh...
amar dukkho tokhn tunge ek dik a ekta osthai career (cricket) er chinta onno dik a baba maar jhamelar chinta.. ar ek dik a tumi .. kin2 jano toh tokhn ami bhebei niechilam ato jhamela dekhe je ami relationship a jabo naa ar... karon ami tomar sthy oi bhby jhamela korte parbo naa ... bacha hole jaah hoe jaa baba maa ke dekhtam bhabtam oram i hoytoh amar stheo hbe..
ei somoy ta tomar o khub kharp jachilo hoytoh .. bole uthte pari ni go..amio besh chapa chilam ..
tumio barite jhamela dkhte kin2 hoytoh tomar outlook ta amar theke boro chilo tumi eta bhab te naa jaa maa baba korche oram tumi o korbe future .. tumi sudhu sundor bhby cheye gacho amay kono future naa bhebe.. etai tomar sobche boro gun .. :) :)
ami present a thakte pari naa eta ekta amar jatah shobhab .. shob somoy future niey bhabi insecured hoe jai ar present take noshto kori...
ICSE Literature porikhar ager deen baba maake puro hatha hathi korte dekhi ... sedin i baba maa bollo tader divorce hobe... ami ar didi eke opor ke jorie kadte thaki onek raat obdhi ... majh raat theke porte boshi ..kichu bhby oi xam ta di...
jai hok baba amay niey chole galo eta tokhn bolechilo maa er sthy theko naa kichu hby naa tomar so after icse took me to bokaro for my plus 2's... majhy tomay ek deen dekhechilam i guess jedin pass certificate nite gechilam kin2 kichu bole uthte parini .. due to my fear.. amio chapa chilam kintu baire theke rock solid appearance rakhtam...karon amar crickt er pscyology sudhu etai boltoh je nijer weakness ta dakhabe na sudhu dominate kore jao matha a neme.. eta amar personal life a apply korate otibo nongra fol dilo ato bochor a ..thak se shb pore bolbo..
haa jekhane a chilam 11 a bokaro ws a tuff time.. baba amay akta khub bhalo school a interview jogar kore dilo st.xaviers ... got thrgh the xam and intervw , sekhane pora kalin ami cbse te porar icha prokash kore feli.. tokhn baba dhanbad a kv te kono xam chara source diey bhorti kore dae... tar por theke amar jibon chng hote thake baba roj raat a amay dhomkatoh .. ojotha raag dakhato .. eka lagto nijeke bodo..
ami ar nite parchilam naa baba kaaj er raag ba hoytoh tar nijer personal lifer kichu raag amar opor tulchilo ... tomar kotha mon ashto raat a baranday jokhn daratam... koshto hoto tokhn tomar frnd tripornor sthy kotha hoy .. ami abar pran a bhoy niey ete egiey ashi .. amar bhoy sudhu eita tei chilo abar kache jabo abar biched ghotbe kono deen amader mdhy ...
tomar sthy bokaro theke raat a sms kori ... ar bhalo lagchilo naa kotha shunte tokhn abar tumi amar pashe eshe darale... nijeke sokto kore bollam baba ami concentrate korte parchi naa kolkatay giey kv te porte chai .. baba bole keno ami bole di maa ke miss porte parbo naa tai .. baba onek oshantir por pathie dae amay... actually amar tomake akbar dakhar chilo .. ami jantam tomake akbar dekhle ato koshto gulo family nie kete jabe.. tomake abar dakha kori pujor somoy shob shundor kore thik hoe .. kin2 barir obstha khub kharap chilo notun bari te asr por theke sara deen maa ignore korto as if amra unwanted children.. maa er o hoytoh raag hoto .. maa deen a deen a ugro hoe jachilo .. babar sthe often fone a jhamela korto doubt korto .. insecurity i guess... kin2 etao bujhchilam baba kichu ekta serious korechilo .. sudhu college life er prem er jonoh oram kichu hote pare naa.. mitali aunty ir sthy kichu serious hoe gachilo i guess..
barir situation gulo amay oshombhb ugro abong usrinkhol kore dae.. didi ke ko ek bar mereo diey chilam choto issues a ... mon er raag ta onno bhby berochilo bujhchilam kin2 nijeke sodhrate parchilam naa... sobai amake avoid korto barite... raag ta tomar opor eo bar kori .. dominate kore rakhbo nijer kache eta ekta ushrinkhol chinta chilo.. jeneo abar tomar sthy misbehave korlam .. abar biched holo
1.5 yrs tumi chile naa .. tomake cheyejetam ar kichu bondhu ke amar raag er durbolota niey boltam ..
obshese abar bhoy katiey tomake sms korlam ek deen raate.. tumi tokhn khub rege chile ..
ar tomar raag ta akdom i lanchonio naa.. keu ato bar boka boka karon a keno jabe ar ferot asbei baa keno.. mithe bolbo naa amar o raag hoechilo bhablm toke dorkar tui keno bujhli naa !!! thik ache ashis naa i can survive on my own..
ananya amar bhalo bondhu hoe jae last 6 months .. khub kotha hoy .. kotha bole majhy majhy ami halka hotam oor kache.. kin2 oke tomar jaega ta dewar kotha mathae ashi ni...
Amar ato kharp somoy jachilo school a i guess tumi jano naa roj amay koto ta insult korto school a tar karon o anger displcmnt issues eta obosho amar anger er kotha bolchi naa eta amar class tchr amar opor angr displcmnt er kotha bolchi, amar baba ektu ugro hoe mam er sthy ekdeen kotha bolechilo bole oi 1.5 yrs in kv 1 kolkata ws like hell ... kichu pora shuno kortam naa ..
cbse holo toh holo oitobo kharap holo sudhu chemistry paper ta bhalo hoechilo tar karon tar ager xam ta physcs chilo oi paper ta complete korini tai nxt 5 days i read chemistry day and night and eventually scored good only in tht particular subjct only...
amr kano jani naa mon a hochilo aftr cbse ananya ke amar bola uchit tht mayb i m developing a liking on her... ami jinish take abar bhoy er jonoh ektu pichie dilam bhablam WBJEE er theke eshe i will say her ..
ekhane sesh korchi karon next incident gulo will b there in the next chapters of my life...
baba bikele eshe knock korlo dorja khule baba ke dekhe chokh a jol chole elo .. babar chokh tao dekhlam jol a bhorti .. prothom bar amar markutte baba take eram obsthay dekhi ami bhenge jai .. baba bollo cholo amar sthy ..ami obhiman kore boli naa jabo naa ar kaal porikhao debo naa.. baba bollo thik ache akhn cholo amar sthy .. ami ar baba gari niey berie gelam oi 50 min er ride frm shymbzr to ruby ws dead silent..
khub koshto hochilo eta bhebe je kano tomra lorai koro haa ?? dujonei toh pashe chile naa jokhn teenage tae boro hochilam akhn keno prem dakhacho .. chotobelay oto bhalobashte hotat second college reunion por theke kano ato jhamela korcho.. mon a mon a ei shb bole gelam .. baba ruby te neme ki shob kaaj kore elo lawyer er sthy ami garir pashei ghora ghuri korlam .. okhan theke fancy market gelam .. tarpor bari firlam 10 tae.. baba bollo mind fresh hoeche .. ebar giey shue poro kaal jaah hbe hbe chinta koro naa.. tension a ami 10 theke sararaat history ta pore porer deen giey xam dilam .. pass kore gechilam otai halka nombor er jonoh...
amar dukkho tokhn tunge ek dik a ekta osthai career (cricket) er chinta onno dik a baba maar jhamelar chinta.. ar ek dik a tumi .. kin2 jano toh tokhn ami bhebei niechilam ato jhamela dekhe je ami relationship a jabo naa ar... karon ami tomar sthy oi bhby jhamela korte parbo naa ... bacha hole jaah hoe jaa baba maa ke dekhtam bhabtam oram i hoytoh amar stheo hbe..
ei somoy ta tomar o khub kharp jachilo hoytoh .. bole uthte pari ni go..amio besh chapa chilam ..
tumio barite jhamela dkhte kin2 hoytoh tomar outlook ta amar theke boro chilo tumi eta bhab te naa jaa maa baba korche oram tumi o korbe future .. tumi sudhu sundor bhby cheye gacho amay kono future naa bhebe.. etai tomar sobche boro gun .. :) :)
ami present a thakte pari naa eta ekta amar jatah shobhab .. shob somoy future niey bhabi insecured hoe jai ar present take noshto kori...
ICSE Literature porikhar ager deen baba maake puro hatha hathi korte dekhi ... sedin i baba maa bollo tader divorce hobe... ami ar didi eke opor ke jorie kadte thaki onek raat obdhi ... majh raat theke porte boshi ..kichu bhby oi xam ta di...
jai hok baba amay niey chole galo eta tokhn bolechilo maa er sthy theko naa kichu hby naa tomar so after icse took me to bokaro for my plus 2's... majhy tomay ek deen dekhechilam i guess jedin pass certificate nite gechilam kin2 kichu bole uthte parini .. due to my fear.. amio chapa chilam kintu baire theke rock solid appearance rakhtam...karon amar crickt er pscyology sudhu etai boltoh je nijer weakness ta dakhabe na sudhu dominate kore jao matha a neme.. eta amar personal life a apply korate otibo nongra fol dilo ato bochor a ..thak se shb pore bolbo..
haa jekhane a chilam 11 a bokaro ws a tuff time.. baba amay akta khub bhalo school a interview jogar kore dilo st.xaviers ... got thrgh the xam and intervw , sekhane pora kalin ami cbse te porar icha prokash kore feli.. tokhn baba dhanbad a kv te kono xam chara source diey bhorti kore dae... tar por theke amar jibon chng hote thake baba roj raat a amay dhomkatoh .. ojotha raag dakhato .. eka lagto nijeke bodo..
ami ar nite parchilam naa baba kaaj er raag ba hoytoh tar nijer personal lifer kichu raag amar opor tulchilo ... tomar kotha mon ashto raat a baranday jokhn daratam... koshto hoto tokhn tomar frnd tripornor sthy kotha hoy .. ami abar pran a bhoy niey ete egiey ashi .. amar bhoy sudhu eita tei chilo abar kache jabo abar biched ghotbe kono deen amader mdhy ...
tomar sthy bokaro theke raat a sms kori ... ar bhalo lagchilo naa kotha shunte tokhn abar tumi amar pashe eshe darale... nijeke sokto kore bollam baba ami concentrate korte parchi naa kolkatay giey kv te porte chai .. baba bole keno ami bole di maa ke miss porte parbo naa tai .. baba onek oshantir por pathie dae amay... actually amar tomake akbar dakhar chilo .. ami jantam tomake akbar dekhle ato koshto gulo family nie kete jabe.. tomake abar dakha kori pujor somoy shob shundor kore thik hoe .. kin2 barir obstha khub kharap chilo notun bari te asr por theke sara deen maa ignore korto as if amra unwanted children.. maa er o hoytoh raag hoto .. maa deen a deen a ugro hoe jachilo .. babar sthe often fone a jhamela korto doubt korto .. insecurity i guess... kin2 etao bujhchilam baba kichu ekta serious korechilo .. sudhu college life er prem er jonoh oram kichu hote pare naa.. mitali aunty ir sthy kichu serious hoe gachilo i guess..
barir situation gulo amay oshombhb ugro abong usrinkhol kore dae.. didi ke ko ek bar mereo diey chilam choto issues a ... mon er raag ta onno bhby berochilo bujhchilam kin2 nijeke sodhrate parchilam naa... sobai amake avoid korto barite... raag ta tomar opor eo bar kori .. dominate kore rakhbo nijer kache eta ekta ushrinkhol chinta chilo.. jeneo abar tomar sthy misbehave korlam .. abar biched holo
1.5 yrs tumi chile naa .. tomake cheyejetam ar kichu bondhu ke amar raag er durbolota niey boltam ..
obshese abar bhoy katiey tomake sms korlam ek deen raate.. tumi tokhn khub rege chile ..
ar tomar raag ta akdom i lanchonio naa.. keu ato bar boka boka karon a keno jabe ar ferot asbei baa keno.. mithe bolbo naa amar o raag hoechilo bhablm toke dorkar tui keno bujhli naa !!! thik ache ashis naa i can survive on my own..
ananya amar bhalo bondhu hoe jae last 6 months .. khub kotha hoy .. kotha bole majhy majhy ami halka hotam oor kache.. kin2 oke tomar jaega ta dewar kotha mathae ashi ni...
Amar ato kharp somoy jachilo school a i guess tumi jano naa roj amay koto ta insult korto school a tar karon o anger displcmnt issues eta obosho amar anger er kotha bolchi naa eta amar class tchr amar opor angr displcmnt er kotha bolchi, amar baba ektu ugro hoe mam er sthy ekdeen kotha bolechilo bole oi 1.5 yrs in kv 1 kolkata ws like hell ... kichu pora shuno kortam naa ..
cbse holo toh holo oitobo kharap holo sudhu chemistry paper ta bhalo hoechilo tar karon tar ager xam ta physcs chilo oi paper ta complete korini tai nxt 5 days i read chemistry day and night and eventually scored good only in tht particular subjct only...
amr kano jani naa mon a hochilo aftr cbse ananya ke amar bola uchit tht mayb i m developing a liking on her... ami jinish take abar bhoy er jonoh ektu pichie dilam bhablam WBJEE er theke eshe i will say her ..
ekhane sesh korchi karon next incident gulo will b there in the next chapters of my life...
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